Monday, September 10, 2012

Embarrasing.

I didn't realize that an email was going to be sent to the list of folks I had selected as people who might be interested in reading this little blog...Now I am EMBARRASSED.  I am so sorry about that, I didn't know it was going to happen. I, of course, am thrilled if you have the time and desire to read some of my thoughts, but this is really a train of thought blog, a way for me to try to be more active in my every day writing..not anything targeted to anyone in particular.  So.  Sorry for the obnoxious email.  Come back and read or look at pictures when/if you want/can.  xoxoxoxo red.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Losing my religion

Today, for the first time in many years, I decided to go to church.  The urge came from a stronger desire I've had recently to find a way to get back to singing regularly.  Years ago, as a teenager, I'd had an amazing year singing in this church's choir.  Singing is just about the only thing that I ever fully engaged in while in church.  For someone who went to church regularly as a child, my knowledge of the Bible is abysmal.  It's as though my brain just never found it necessary to retain that information. 

As a child, I enjoyed church quite a bit; not necessarily the message (which clearly went in one ear and out the other) but the performance of it all.  I liked that standing, the kneeling, the singing.  I remember liking the bit where everyone confessed their sins against God, in a monotone unison voice.  I found it powerful and exciting.  Here were a bunch of people saying that they had messed up and asking to be forgiven.  How neat was that! 

When I walked into the cathedral, I immediately spotted a few familiar faces (ghosts from my past), and instinctively tried to avoid all eye contact.  Thankfully, no one seemed to have any idea who I was.  It became clear very quickly that my experience this time around would be quite different from the fond memories I cherished.  The choir, whom I had been hoping to hear was not back yet from summer break...I decided to stay nonetheless.  I found a seat in a pew towards the back, sensing perhaps that I might need an early escape.

Here I was, in the middle of wooden pews, all lined-up, like a classroom, filled with well-dressed people ready to hear the "word of the Lord".  As soon as the service began, I realized that something was off.  Yes, I knew all the words to everything the congregation was asked to say, but I didn't really want to say them.  So I picked and chose.  The collective prayers, which had struck me as a child as being so powerful and moving, suddenly stuck me as dull and depressing, even a little frightening.  No emotion, no variation.  All of these individual voices blending into a single monotonous and terribly sad one.   

Matters were made worst by the priest's sermon, which was a good blend of making the congregation feel special and then sending out the message that the Anglican church really needs to start being more active and making sure people stopped leaving the church.  He mentioned that the past 50 years had been spent figuring out who could be part of this community, and stated that now the concern was:  what do we do now.  It sounded as though being Anglican was like being part of an exclusive club, with rights and privileges.  Not everyone is allowed in, but if you are...well, luck you! Now, go on and spread the word of the Lord.

I sang my heart out, and that felt good.  I didn't go up for communion.  I didn't stick around for coffee hour.  It took a lot to actually sit through the whole hour and fifteen minutes.  I wasn't moved once, I didn't feel connected.  I didn't even feel like praying.

My parents go to a beautiful church which is the exact opposite of this one.  In their church, the chairs are set up in a circle.  If you decide to attend regularly, you get assigned to a "tribe".  In their church, the choir isn't as "professional", they don't wear robes, but when they sing, you can tell that they really are singing with their hearts.  Everytime I go there, I am moved. Not because the "word of the Lord" is so powerful, but because you can feel a real sense of community, a real connection, and a real desire to be spiritual.  The old gothic imposing columns don't exist here, they have been replaced with beautiful wood and lots of light. 

My desire to sing is strong, and perhaps I will find a way to appreciate that Sunday morning hour if I do end up joining the choir...but right now, I'm thinking I might need to find someplace else to try to go find some sort of spiritual connection.  A place that is warm, authentic, different.  Perhaps a place that celebrates stepping out of the rigidity of these wooden pews, stepping out of the pearls, stepping out of such a tightly structure production, and leaves a little bit more room for improvisation. 


Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Chicago Marron: Old friends and dead ends at Strawdog

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Old Times is the kind of play and the kind of production that won’t let you blink. 
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Monday, October 10, 2011

Neal Ryan Shaw for NewCity Stage: Old Times/Strawdog Theatre Company

Review: Old Times/Strawdog Theatre Company

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A wonderful thing that can occur in a production in an intimate space like Strawdog’s is that moment when characters, and maybe even the audience, feel an overwhelming urge to escape, and yet there seems to be nowhere to go. Despite the two doors and window on Michael Mroch’s symmetrical set, there are definitely moments like that in this Pinter revival. It’s those moments when Kate (Abigail Boucher) looks like she’s been caught in a lie. She has invited her old friend Anna (Michaela Petro) to come visit her and her husband Deeley (John Henry Roberts) at their seaside home after some twenty years. Yet if they were such good friends, Deeley points out, he should have heard of her before now. The trio relate memories in order to work toward a shared understanding of the past, yet none appears hopeful that they will. Kimberly Senior’s direction mines the play for all its dark, twisted absurdism, and often, cruelly, luxuriates in the stone silences that accompany morbid realizations. (Neal Ryan Shaw)

Hedy Weiss from the Chicago Suntimes: ‘Old Times’ delivers solid, new vision

HEDY WEISS Theater Critic/hweiss@suntimes.com October 10, 2011 6:32PM

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In “Old Times,” his compellingly elusive tale of a triangulated erotic relationship, Harold Pinter, the late Nobel Prize-winning British dramatist, brilliantly played both sides against an ever-shifting middle. And inside of 80 airtight minutes he created an exceedingly tense, fascinatingly opaque, invariably unreliable picture of what did or did not go on among three people 20 years earlier, what might or might not have been going on in the interim, and what is certainly going on among and between them now.

The possible permutations of the one man and two women in his story are manifold. The Rashomon effect is definitely in play. The language is biting, clever, crystalline, wounding.

For her riveting Strawdog Theatre Company revival of this 1971 Pinter classic, director Kimberly Senior has tapped the talents of two extraordinary young actresses wholly new to me — Abigail Boucher (as Kate) and Michaela Petro (as Anna) — and paired them with veteran Strawdog actor John Henry Roberts (as Deeley). The result is a subtle yet incendiary rendering of what is quite the psycho-sexual power game, complete with time-warped resentments.

The story unspools in the remote English seaside home of the long-married Deeley, and his blond, somewhat passive-seeming wife, Kate. Enter the visiting Anna, a dark and dangerous vamp who is married to a wealthy man and living on the island of Sicily. She and Kate were best friends and roommates in London when they were young, broke, racing off to the theater and galleries, and hanging out in arty cafes in search of the attention of sensitive, accomplished, interesting men.
The women, though quite different, were certainly competitors on some level, and perhaps even lovers. And Deeley may have seduced, abandoned and/or cheated on one or both of them at various times back then — or subsequently, or now. All three are in the dark some of the time, with one always feeling like the outsider. The pain and jealousy are palpable.

As Anna, Petro, dressed in an angular black sheath dress, and with cheekbones to match, initially seems to dominate with her controlled volatility and vampire-like ways. But then the powdery Boucher emerges from her offstage bath in a pink silk robe and begins to wipe her opponent off the map. Roberts, oddly boyish yet drawn, is the opportunist and rat. But nobody in this play (expertly designed by Mike Mroch, Aly Renee Amidei, Sean Mallary and Christopher Kriz) is quite who or what they appear to be at first glance.

Katy Walsh from from the Fourth Walsh: "Old Times" (Strawdog Theatre): Sublime Acting in Pinter's Intellectual Teaser



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As I get older, I often ask for timeframe clarity on an incident.  Was it last summer, ten years ago or did I dream it?  Recently, a long-term chum was recanting a youthful escapade.  Somewhere in the middle of his narration, I interrupted.  I don’t know what bothered me more.  That I’ve told the story often enough that he’s inserted himself into that memory?  Or that I didn’t realize it was MY story until ten minutes in?

Strawdog Theatre presents OLD TIMES.   Between 1968-1982, Playwright Harold Pinter penned a number of pieces sometimes termed ‘the memory plays.’  In OLD TIMES, Kate announces her best friend Anna is coming to visit.  Deeley, her husband is startled.  Why has he never heard of Anna?  If Kate and Anna are BFFs, why haven’t they seen each other in twenty years? Upon arrival, Anna mixes it up even more.  The stories contradict. The puzzle disconnects.  Who’s zooming who?  Seems like OLD TIMES is the movie “Single White Female” taking place in the play “No Exit.”  

Pinter riddles an intellectual teaser.  Each of the characters shifts alliances and circumstances during the reunion meet-up.  Just as I connect two dots to get a picture, Pinter hits the scrambler button.  Dots fly into a new semblance.  A different depiction emerges from the shake-up.   Using silence and timing to perfection, Director Kimberly Senior builds the intrigue and the questions.  The talented threesome draws their own fuzzy lines between adoration and obsession, lust and hate, life and death. John Henry Roberts (Deeley) goes from baffled to flirty to accusatory to despondent. The synergy between Roberts and Michaela Petro (Anna) is supercharged with sexual aggression. A confident Petro controls the living room with expert game-playing.  Petro deliciously baits Deeley revealing Kate’s past.  Abigail Boucher (Kate) plays it perfectly vague.  Throughout the intense banter between Roberts and Petro, Boucher is serenely expressionless.  In Boucher’s powerful transformation, she awakens with disturbing memories of her own.

OLD TIMES was first produced in 1971.  Scenic Designer Mike Mroch stays true to the time period with a stylish set.  Mroch builds out a two walled Modernist set with a window overlooking a wooden fenced-in area.  My interpretation is validated with this imagery because the set reinforces the trio being stuck.  Costume Designer Aly Renee Amidei provides fashionable 70’s attire for the cast.  The outfits help define the first impressions of the characters with Roberts- businesslike, Petro – sexy, and Boucher – sweet.

I remember thinking about halfway through OLD TIMES that I wanted to see it again.  I’d like to see if knowing what I know now makes me connect the dots differently.  Because the acting is sublime, a repeat visit is a no-brainer decision… that is as long as I don’t forget to do it. 
Stepping out of his musical theatrical comfort zone, Dick describes it with ‘I am confused.’

Running Time:  Eighty minutes with no intermission.

At Strawdog Theatre, 3829 N. Broadway

Written by Harold Pinter
Directed by Kimberly Senior

Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays at 8pm
Sundays at 4pm
Thru November 12th
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Chris Jones of the Chicago Tribune: 'Old Times' are sexy and new at Strawdog

John Henry Roberts, Michaela Petro and Abigail Boucher in "Old Times." (October 10, 2011)


'Old Times' are sexy and new at Strawdog [link to article]



When it comes to love and sex, we tend to think of intimacy as a goal or an ideal — something to work toward. But that delightful state, by its very definition, both implies and requires exclusion. It's tough to be intimate in a crowd. Even a third wheel can be one too wheel too many and must be rolled away.

Or not, of course.

"Old Times," the brief but masterful Harold Pinter drama from 1971, is certainly concerned with the juicy current possibilities of matters amorous and triangular. But this spare, oft-revived story of an English couple, Kate and Deely, who welcome into their renovated farmhouse a mysterious woman, Anna, with whom Kate shared a London flat (and maybe more) 20 years prior, is also about the force of our memories of intimacies, be they real or imagined.
  • Chris Jones
"There are things I remember which may never have happened," Anna says at one telling point. "But as I recall them, so they take place."

Thus most productions of "Old Times" — and this one-set, two-couch play, easy to produce but fiendishly difficult to produce well, is done in Chicago quite frequently — are eloquent, well-spoken, self-consciously dramatic, rather gauzy affairs that focus on the verbal games started by a menacing, well-dressed stranger from the past. They are not, in general, especially intimate. Yet Kimberly Senior's very shrewd, fresh and beguiling new Strawdog Theatre Company production — which features actors who feel hungrier and are rather younger than has become typical — is much more interested in the possibilities of the present. In other words, that famously requisite Pinter menace here flows neither from pregnant pauses nor nostalgia, but from the dangerous intimacy of what might happen right now.

Or, to put this another way, this is a very sexy production of what unspools here as a very sensual play. It will have you on the edge of your seat.

Senior — one of those savvy Chicago directors who works in major theaters but also knows the rewards of working in small and seemingly quotidian spaces like Strawdog's second-floor stage — achieves this mostly by keeping the environment cold and allowing her warm-bodied actors to keep floating very, very close together.

That sounds so simple as to be barely worth comment, but I have memories (which may never have happened, of course) of many an "Old Time" wherein the three characters of this little drama sat on separate chairs, talking across gulfs of isolating space and staring at each other, Pinteresquely. At one point here, though, the expectant, nervous heads of Abigail Boucher's Kate, Michaela Petro's Anna and John Henry Roberts' Deely are literally inches apart. Boucher and Petro, both beautiful actresses elegantly attired by designer Aly Greaves Amedei, each wear striking false eyelashes — emblematic of 1971, indicative of mutual competition intensified by age, and, when fluttering, a reminder that it's just as important to be desired as to desire.

The seating at Strawdog is split into two sections, which Senior carefully exploits with a variety of angles. At one point from my perch, two sets of eyelashes appeared in profile, intersected only by a whiff of panic on Roberts' face; he plays Deely as a man surrounding by eroticism he can't ever understand. It's not the usual approach, necessarily (the woman are very firmly in charge here), but it makes a point about a man who only got lucky once, if at all. In Senior's reading, he's a third wheel desperately trying not to be consigned to the ditch, where he probably belongs.

Both Petro and Boucher are fascinating and their interactions are complex. This is a play perched on the very knife edge of eroticism, and at Strawdog, it sits there deliciously and dangerously. Instead of playing the usual femme fatale with a posh accent and an MFA, the superb Petro reminds us of two crucial things about Anna: She was not very long ago just one of those pretty London girls, hanging out with escorts and only dimly aware of her limited shelf-life. And she is now, as she always was, vulnerable, mostly alone, and ever in search of intimacy. Maybe even of the kind she can't control.

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When: Through Nov. 12
Where: Strawdog Theatre, 3829 N. Broadway
Running time: 1 hour, 15 minutes
Tickets: $28 at 866-811-4111or strawdog.org

Saturday, July 16, 2011

KOD Spectacular

July 13th, 2011 [most importantly my younger sister's 18th birthday, but also Bastille Day Eve], I was lucky to perform with my friend and wonderful musician Kevin O'Donnell and his band.  It was a fun evening, bursting with talent and laughter.  To show my patriotism, I sang "Non, je ne regrette rien" by Edith Piaf and "Ma Benz", Brigitte's cover of NTM's song.

Rehearsing at KOD's.
Beth Sagal sings.
















Back in Chicago...

I've been back in Chicago for a few weeks now, settling in slowly.  Here is a visual taste of summer in Chicago:

Lake Michigan early in the morning

With Che on the back porch


First dip in Lake Michigan, ever.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Time flies

What a whirlwind it's been!  Although I had the best intentions to keep up with my blog while I was in France, things got really busy and I just didn't have it in me to sit down in front of the computer more than necessary.  I had a wonderful visit, filled with friends, weddings, babies, music and tons of love. 


L'opéra de Paris, tôt le matin.




















Provins

Grey day at the Trocadéro